Rainy Night.

Rainy Night...

30 days... 30 days... since that day.... I wonder when I will be able to get rid of your memory, how can I? If even in my dreams I see you. It seems that my heart desperately tries to remember you.

How can I move on? I have been asking God to bring you back or to erase what I feel for you to fade away, but my prayers are not been heard.

I miss you. Like I have never missed no one in my life.

I loved you. I love you and I will love you.

Everytime that I think of you. I tell myself, hey he never loved you. So why do I love you my dear? Why?

Now it's raining... and I do not know why do I miss you!. If you only huged me once.  But my heart and soul they are so in love with that memory...

And now I am crying.. cause I know that you do not miss me.

I love you...  I seriously do.

But I was not the one for you.

Please someone tell me how can I get rid of this heartache! Cause I am dying silently.

My heart bleeds, my eyes cry, I can not forget your eyes, your laugh, your face.

Missing you...

Lately I am telling myself... I am fine.. I do not love you no more.. is what I feel... but all of the sudden a picture of you appears on my phone... Didn't I erase them all? Should I erase that pic? I saw it and my heart bleeds... and now I see... I miss you... more that I will ever admit.

Afraid...

Now I met someone who seems to be nice. Cute and everything that I ever wanted.. but I am afraid... cause "him" took so much away from me... the capability to trust in someone. And now I am lost... I don't know what to do.

Chapter closed...

Once I walked away from you... I looked back and I saw that you were not following me.... But my love was greater than my pride.

This time you let me go... then I looked back and I saw that you were not following me this time either.

My heart was in pain... but faith told me "look forward".

....this time I am not looking back...cause the future is right in front of me... with a lot of people who truly seems to care about me....

So... do not regret nothing... as nothing last forever...

Everything ends.. Love, Life... Now I wonder... Did you ever truly loved me?

Even When You saw that they were looking up for me... You just gave up. Thank you for everything. I hope now to be happy.