El Parcero.

So now? So now what?
I met you when I was already fine...
You came to me so unexpected... so strong! So full of life... so happy.

I do love you parcero. But I have to contain my feelings towards you.

Once I felt that my heart was already in your hands. But I decided to take it away and keep it for myself on a safe place... on a place that will not suffer...

I wish i could have met you on a time when you would have been ready for me.

But my parcero... your heart is somewhere else coming back where it belongs... with him... despites that he is no longer in your life.

Half of your heart is with me... only when i am arround.

I only wish that he never comes back... cause that day my parcero... will be the day that i will lost you. And if that happens... it will be the day that you will lost me for good. And forever.

At the end only time will decide what will happen.... my mind, body and heart belongs to you...

I just hope that at the end you end up with me... cause i am more that willing to make you happy.

I will fight for you my parcero... but lets be honest... at the moment that i realize that it is a lost cause... i will retire myself with dignity and knwing that i fought for you with all of the wapons that a i have in my hands.

I can not force you to love... but i will force myself to not love you if necesary.

Still parcero... will see what time decides.

Him...

One day... I was walking through the city.. me? Just a regular guy with dreams, hopes... wishes.. a guy not rich nor poor... beautiful? Well.. beauty is subjective.

Coming back to that day... when I was walking through the city... then. I saw him.

Him? A beautiful tall guy with sad eyes... a beard. And an old styled outfit... deep beautiful sad eyes... he caught my attention.

The days passed... then I saw him again... I was amazed that he could not keept his eyes away from me.

Everyday after that magical day when destiny decided to cross our paths... every single day my desire for him grew like a flame that burned my inner me. His lips against my lips... his agreessive tongue on my neck. His big hands over my body... his lungs breathing heavy... his head against my chest when that moment came to an end... his perfume on my pillow...

But as the sun comes to an end every day. he slowly killed me when I was not able to see him anymore... his desition? His toughts? I will never know.

The only thing that I was sure. Is that I was. I am and I will be absolutely in love with him.

I love him with deep passion... with deep desire... with deep devotion.

Nothing in this life is worse than to love someone that way, and not to be loved the same.

He will remain in my dreams... nightmares... hopes... and in my heart until the end of time.

One day... we might be able to be together.

At least one day more. But I know that one day more will never be enough...

Cause I need him next to my my whole life.